December 2010
29 posts
Ramble post # ...billion
I’m really excited for new years eve this year. Normally my family always celebrates together, but this year my dad refuses to and claims, “there’s nothing to celebrate.” I find this a fortunate circumstance since my friends and I are driving to Los Angeles to attend a loft party. I keep picturing myself in a sequin dress dancing amongst my friends and strangers, counting...
suspendedspirits asked: Happy Holidays<3 :')
I have a ‘crush’ on someone and it’s completely torturing me. Suddenly having feelings is overwhelming and i’m feeling evidently nauseous. I can’t stand constantly thinking of him; it makes me feel weak and annoying. I sure as hell hope he can’t secretly read minds or something, because that’ll be a bit embarrassing. I need to stop feeling this way,...
I could pass a drug test right now. I haven’t had sex in six months. I haven’t been been intensely drunk in a while. I have yet to do anything rebellious all year. This is not how I intended to finish the year off.
Where did all my energy go? I find it difficult to even get up from my bed. I watch the sky outside my window for hours; I dream and dream of things and people i’ll never have. I dream of a person i’ll never be and the person I have been in the past. I lay and read, and read, and read books of exciting characters in overwhelming plots. Read about drugs, sex, pain, isolation, and love....
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November 2010
36 posts
Last day of November angry rant.
Well. Last week I found fluoxetine hydrochloride pills in my mom’s medicine cabinet. I took four and went to bed, not really knowing what they were for, but hoping they’d make me fall asleep faster. I woke up in middle of the night with brief unbearable stomach pain. Turns out, they’re for severe depression and compulsive disorder, and they expired three years ago. I’m...